Sunday, December 18, 2011

A Heart's Death


She promised me love and gave me her hate, She premised me sex and gave it to another, she promised me life and gave my heart death.
......And now she comes to me begging wanting me back; but this is impossible there’s no love and no lust.

I will never forgive her... she broke all my feelings. Because of her I hate you and there’s nothing you can do…

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-"between my essence and the mirror there’s hidden tears of everlasting fire..."


~Vampyr: Der Traum des Allan Grey

...about horrendous demons called vampires. At full moon the dead, not at peace because of terrible deeds they did while living, rise from their coffins- to suck the blood of children and young people- and prolong their own life in the land of the shadows
At night, creatures of the Abyss visit homes of the living to sow death and despair. Whoever falls into the hands of the vampire withers away hopelessly... a wound on the throat, as by a bite of a rat or a cat, is the mark of damnation.
...to grow accustomed to their miserable fate- which, besides pain to the body, brings untold agony to the soul. Therefore, like an epidemic, a vampires craving for blood is carried over the victim, who himself becomes a vampire...
...and goes searching for new victims among his dear ones. Whole families, yes, whole villages, in this way have been sucked into the curse.
Shadows of executed criminals are their helpers. Living people may also be forced to do their dreadful bidding. A tale from Hungary tells how a village doctor, having sold his soul to the evil one…
Became the helper of a vampire- and was accomplice to a series of horrid crimes in that parish. Here vampires---
The vampire, who has obtained complete power over its victim, tried in every possible way to drive it to suicide; for the one who taken his own life is lost for eternity. For him, the golden gates of heaven are closed- all hope is gone! Oh, you devilish…
…the riddle of life? Who can penetrate the secrets hidden from the light of day? Just as strange as the life of the vampires, is the manner of breaking their might.
These monsters, who cannot find peace, must be murdered so that persecuted mankind way be freed from its nightmare. Many monasteries and libraries have, in their secret…
…how sometimes vampires have been made harmless. In the village of Gisiolova, which was haunted by a vampire in the body of an old woman, they went about it as follows… At dawn the grave was opened; they found the old one laying down, as if asleep.
They drove a metal bar into her hear- and nailed detestable soul to the crypt. She now died a true death, and the crime, that rested over…
…certain places were haste by vampires. Many years ago there was a foul epidemic in the village of Courtempierre- claiming eleven victims. Doctors gave the sickness a scientific name. yet among men a rumor spread that a vampire was playing its game… People believed this vampire was one Margerite Chopin, buried in the village churchyard. All her life, Margerite Chopin was a monster in a human body. She died without remorse, and at the hour of death the church refused her…
~Vampyr: Der Traum des Allan Grey

Friday, September 2, 2011

just a vent

I'm not a saint and I don't pretend to be one, you shouldn't pretend either. I've hurt people by mistake or on purpose. But I try to better myself everyday. Eventually I'll make up for it. Some people left a mark on me, either a scar, ink or a scratch in my heart... however, I try to focus on the good times I had with them, instead of that final pain... at the end, life is too short to focus on the sad times... I've lost 3 amazing people in my life and they all taught me a lesson. Lessons I took in and use daily... I miss you Silver DeBatiz, Julio Abuso and Michael J Hein. Always.... RIP guys, not a day goes by that I stop thinking of you. 

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Relationships... blah

I never believed in the traditional relationship standards and rules. I've never waited 2 days to call someone and I surely don't care about playing hard to get. However, I have the bad habit of becoming cold and distant when I fall in love. This is the only issue you'll ever encounter with me and I'm working on it. I'm trying to let myself go and just be. I really hope I can succeed. If not I might loose something amazing.